星期二, 三月 25, 2008
我要的幸福~~
Dr. Grey is so right. This is really the case that women always count on little things while men think they can score equal marks by just doing "some" big things. He actually tells my story...
Over the nights, I keep thinking what is the true meaning of "幸福" (well, "bliss" may be the best translation for that word)... to me, it is a feeling of being properly, gently and heartfully loved, cared and needed... how about you?
In what ways I can feel it?
- someone knows your body clock and schedule, and wake you up with a gently morning phone call.
- someone is already here when you first open your eyes in every morning.
- someone gets well of your ups and downs, and cares about you by keep asking you questions; to open your heart.
- someone says i miss you to you at least once a week, even though he is busiest in any other matters.
- someone is there when you yell to need him.
- someone is loving you without any doubts and suspicion.
- someone is the right person to step over a new stage of life with you, while he feels the same as you do.
- someone finally comes back from his cave, and you hear a sweet voice "I love you so".
- someone is accepting you gracefully that "I am the one who I am".
- someone listens to your needs, memorizes in his heart and finds ways to better match with you.
- someone will make/buy you a little snack that you are fond of.
- someone is giving you support by just acompanying you and saying nothing, when you are in downswing.
- when you say "I love you" to someone, he will reply "mine is more than yours".
- when i am dreaming about anything beautifully, someone is in my dreams and dreaming with me.
- someone is urging you to hurry up because you know him wants to see you so much.
- when someone is saying goodbye at the end of a day, you can always be kissed, sometimes gently and sometimes passionately.
- when you need a lovely promise, someone is endorsing a promise to you though it may not be real.
- someone is wanting to get known of every little piece of your life, and readily to shares with you his.
- when you feel deeply sorry, someone is readily to forget your fault and forgive you right away.
- when you know i am waiting your word, you will be kind to tell me you love me so.
- someone's love will never be washed away when time goes by.
- someone is telling you today, " I love you more than yesterday".
- Nobody takes it for granted in a love relationship.
- someone shares with you his movie interest, and prepare everything before you go to cinema with him.
- someone's voice is heard before and after bed.
- someone is always the first person that you can think of whenever there is any good piece of news.
- someone is the first person to let you think of, when you are doing nothing.
- just a sms note to let you know you are in his heart; to give support and reassurance.
- just a telephone number you can call when you got a nightmare.
- (ADD YOURS)
星期一, 三月 17, 2008
some snaps with models
換了新手機, 今晚在舊手機的gallery內翻看舊照片, 找來了一些與model的合照, 首次公開啊~ 
kat @ noel chu wedding gallery
slim得來好有shape, 皮膚又白, 至於女人最重要的部位嘛~ 大家有眼看啦~ (羨慕 x 1000000)
真人靚過上鏡!
Denise @ studio
20出頭的Denise, 外表好細, 但聲線又好成熟, 好專業, 身形都好好, 有少少baby fat 幾cute~
Yan@ IPSA
Yan好高, 但當日就攰左少少, 所以有少少眼圈... anyway, Yan好好傾, 好專業, 全程保持笑容~~ 至於Yan...上鏡靚過真人!
星期六, 三月 15, 2008
星期二, 三月 11, 2008
不報中文系~ 有點感觸!
~ 陶傑蘋果日報專欄
不報中文系如果有得選擇，豈止不要「母語學」，連進大學，最好也不要報讀中文系。
首先，讀中國語文及文學系的人，中文創作不見得出色，當代中文大作家沒有一個是大學中文系畢業。金庸，在民國時代唸法學，梁羽生讀的是化學。另外還有一堆名師：張愛玲、錢鍾書、余光中、白先勇，中文好得不得了，卻是讀英國文學出身。冷門一些，六十年代台灣的文學家：王文興、歐陽子、陳若曦，全部是台大外文系畢業。
不錯! 因為我非但不是"當代中文大作家", 更無志於成為"當代中文大作家", 選中文系, 也是因時制宜的做法. 還記得A-LEVEL放榜那天, 同學們都例必拿著成績單, 找升學及就業輔導組的戴志鋒老師詢問選科取向, 他撇見我的成績單, 只說了一句"你一定選中文系吧, 一定收你的!" 但心仍有不甘, 想中文系一定很悶吧, 況且七年中學亦沒有對中文有非讀不可的濃厚興趣... 結果, 第一志願: HKU social science, 第二志願: CUHK Govt and Public Affairs, 第三志願才是中文系... 結果, 有幸有不幸, 真的給我入了這一系. 自此... 我便背起"中文了得"這個虛名, 在大學裡蒙混過關, 在社會上騙財騙工...
再看香港的一批：散文家林燕妮，在美國柏克萊讀遺傳學，倪匡連大學也沒讀過，中文卻那麼啜核。蔡瀾在日本留學，更不在話下。學好中文，不必進大學花四年專攻老氣橫秋的學系，中國文學和文化，完全可以靠自修。讀英文系、法文系、日本語文及文化系，哲學、歷史也好，先打一層外國的底，培養一點海洋的品味和眼光，回頭再讀中國古代的典籍，反而更有洞見。
可真是中文系的悲哀! 我還記得鄭伯伯在講堂上把《左傳》諗得振振有詞, 人人選修古典文獻文學, 除了"易過"之外, 在中文系的氛圍裡, 選現代文學課的同學, 卻是被人用奇異眼光唾棄的族類, 除了小思還有點威望外, 教授間都認為現代文學乃後起之學, 不入流, 我想像王貽興一類有個性的學生, 早就被人孤立了. 還入娛樂圈啊, 簡直不能再踏入馮景禧樓的大門. 接觸文字工作後, 其實對昔日的四書五經已經忘記得一乾二淨, 偶爾會反問自己, 究竟中文系教曉了我看甲骨文, 還是查爾雅, 為什麼今天統統都用不著?! 是中文系食古不化, 還是我選錯了系, 也許中文系有比教育學院更會培訓教師的一套, 想做別的, 敬請勿進! 中文系亦不是你修讀興趣的好地方. 由此看來, 中文系的視野, 又怎會比外文系的人廣闊呢?! 做創作的人, 除了有文字功架外, 最令讀者仰慕的, 應該文字的深度與視野吧, 這一方面, 這一群"八股佬" 真的當之有愧.
例如，先讀伏爾泰的散文，再讀晚明的小品，把地中海大西洋的浩瀚，接到黃河這一端，就會明白中國散文的精神境界。先讀十九世紀波特萊爾和藍波的詩，再讀唐代的李商隱和李賀，感受更深一層。這一切，叫做Fusion，夏蟲不可與語冰，沒法子解說。
避讀中文系，還有一個氣質的問題。一進這個門檻，滿屋都是錢穆和牟宗三的幽靈，一股明末清初遺民士大夫的悲情，夾雜一室煙灰的薰味撲鼻而來，一忽兒是三千年文化、博大精深，一回頭又變成禮崩樂壞、花果飄零，北望神州，長嗟短嘆，淒苦孤伶，天愁地慘。年華二八的美少女，樣子不論多麼桃花扇、氣質如何牡丹亭，一進中文系，整天跟韓愈、司馬光和孔子孟子這些老頭為伍，訓詁引據，筆記窮經，三年不到，肌膚的光潤全無，聲音低沉，笑容消失，思想全跟在先人評點的框框打轉，熬成老姑婆，這又何苦？
這一點我倒十分同意 (寄韻之前亦寫過, 為何文學人都要談悲情呢, 為何不能快快樂樂地寫文章), 中國人的文學世界, 框架定得太小了. 昔日孔子年代, 你要寫fusion, 定必被當頭捧喝, 要你靜思己過. 今天社會接受能力高了, 文字已不再是拿來教化的工具, 不是鼓吹走向詭異, 拿來抒情已經夠好吧.
外面的世界很大很好玩嘛，讀文學經典，不如先讀莎劇的AsYouLikeIt。看《紅樓夢》，也不必唸中文系，只要失過戀就得了，加上今古評論一大堆，當做消閒看，三生貫澈，千里融通。
中文系會窒息創意，把人讀成小老頭。不錯，黃霑是中文系畢業的，振興流行曲，把鹹濕包裝成文化，這一切，都為中文系的一干長衫老授不容。黃霑是中文大師，卻是反中文系的叛道。
勿讀中文系，先不要亂，不是我一個人說的。一位姓陳的中文系資深授，二十年前就叫人「不報文科」，其「文科」即是中文系為首。我認為這句話太過偏激了。文科可以讀，尤其是牛津和劍橋的古典系和歷史，獨是華人社會中文系的BA課程不必報。其中道理，你長大了就明白，但當前，大學選科，勿以中文系為首選，信我吧，無無仇，我不騙你。
如果陶先生所說的"姓陳的中文系資深授"是來自中大的, 我大抵能猜到是誰. 近年報中文系已經買少見少了, 知道他們不得不放寬收生標準, 不必修讀中國文學A-LEVEL的學生亦能報讀. 也許中文系教授看到這篇文章, 大抵連僅有白髮也會掉下幾條! 聽我這個過來人說, 一次"與時並進"的課程改革才能挽救系裡的聲譽, 勿毀掉「香港"中文"大學集合了全香港中國語文的精英」的美譽吧! 畢竟, 我還是本著中文系的熱心, 對說"中國/香港人, 不讀中文天生都能寫得出好的中文"的人心存偏激, 好的中文, 是要用心用時間熬出來的! 除非你在中學生的作業簿上找不到一個錯別字, 否則我斷不會認同這個無師自通的歪理...
不過, 我倒有點不同意陶先生的"結果論證法", 用今天有成就的作家, 來推算中文系的價值, 有點本末倒置. 其實古今相同, 要成名, 還必須有天時地利人和配合, 缺一不可, 能成名的, 亦並不代表他們的文字都是好的, 只是後世有人因他們已成名而順應時勢美言幾句, 以表自己有鑑賞能力, 有學養... 寫得好文字而沒有成名的, 又豈止千萬人呢?!
我上榜Google呀~~ 勁威水!!!
自從我 post 了有關 Initial Cafe 的 blog 出來之後, 1 個月還未到便累積了467個瀏覽, 還有很多朋友說他們想去試呢~~ 真是興奮!!
昨天還赫然發現一個驚天大秘密, 朋友告訴我, 在 Google 裡打Initial Cafe, 我竟然排名第一, 嘩!!! 第一喎, 自從中一以來, 我都未試過第一名, 這個歷史性時刻, 當然要立即 cap screen 留個記念啦~~
hehe, 勁威水!!! XD
